There was a girl, around 7 years old, who was born in a medium-class family. She doesn’t have any siblings so she was on her own with all her possession and love.
She lived with her parents in their wonderful, warm house. She loved her father. Whatever she felt, her father will be the first she let know except if she got wounded while playing at school. She loved her father despite the clobbers from him that she used to get if she did anything wrong. She loved her father despite the harsh play her father used to have with her.
At that time, her mother was a pillar for her. Each time, this little girl feel scared of her dad, she would ask her mother to go to her grandparents’ house. There she knew that she would have a wonderful company. There was grandma to cook nice meal for her, there was grandpa to tell her stories and play merrily with her, even though there was an aunt of hers who never liked her.
But despite all, she liked her dad until one fine day….
There was one fine day when she realized that her dad not only furious of her, but also of her mother. That day she was hurt. She was small, many people thought she didn’t feel but they were wrong. She could feel but she didn’t cry…she didn’t know how to cry on that kind of things at that time. She kept that pain inside her little chest.
There was one day, at around evening time, it was bright as if the Sun was very happy… Her mother decided to leave that house of theirs and go to that little girl grandparents’ house. That little girl was very happy. After the pain she felt, she was very joyful with this news. No one will hit her anymore, no one will shed tears in her mother’s eyes anymore.
But…unfortunately, that little girl is not very fortunate. She didn’t realize that until 8 years later. She was a teenager and she saw many strange things happening around her. The Love that she thought was genuine was nothing other than a mere beautiful mask. The warm situation that she felt, fade away. At that time, she felt that pain again. But again she was silent.
No one ever knows, not even that little girl herself knows why each time she’s hurt she go to silence mode. She will retreat to a place where she could think and digest. It’s not her revenge to the situation, but that’s the only way she knows to calm herself down. She doesn’t talk her pain unless she trusted a person. She doesn’t talk her expectations, hope and deepest imagination unless she trusted that person. She decided to talk to her grandmother since at that time, her mother was still a stranger for her in some kind of comprehension. Then she knows that everybody put the mistake on her mother…. For that little girl, her mother is a stranger but she knows how genuine her mother is. She was silent again since she didn’t get the answer.
Until one day, 3 years later, her mother talked to her. Her mother decided to talk to her because she thought her little girl has grown up enough to know about some things. There was the day, that little girl learn to cry. She cried, not for the pain she felt…but for the betrayals that had happened behind her back, behind her mother’s back. That betrayal wiped off all the good things that she had faced in the previous years… She thought that all of them were fake, nothing is truly genuine.
Now she has grown up into a independent young adult. Deep inside her, all she knows about her is that she's a person with full of love without a channel to convey it. She often shed tears when she realized how tragic it is to have "love" but never know how or to whom to share it. Still, she faced her environment with the angle that had shaped her life, betrayal.
She didn’t give chances to people to enter the fortress she has built. She stopped trusting people and she thought she will be that way till the end.But one magical day came from nowhere…. She met someone who could teach her what trust is, what Love is, what faith is. With the background she had, she was very skeptical, but somewhere deep inside her heart keep telling her to give a try this time and she did. Many people, even maybe the one who came to teach her thought that she was just accepting things, but it wasn’t….she was learning…. She broke all the restrictions, she broke the fortress she has built one brick by one brick. She slipped and fell down several times, but her teacher didn’t leave her. Again she slipped, but this time she found her teacher is getting fed up with her….What should she do? She hasn’t completed the lesson yet…
She started to feel that she is disrespected by her teacher and she will run away like hell once she feels that anybody made her feel that she’s disrespected. That’s not the feeling she feels happy to tolerate.
Will she be successful in completing the lesson? Or Will she be abandoned in the Limbo and the situation is forced for her to build even a stronger eternal fortress? Will her heart melt for good? Or Will her heart finally become irreversible frozen till the end of her life? Will there be a renaissance or It will be eternally pitch black? Will she forgive her teacher or will she leave her teacher for good?
What will be the end of this story? Only the angels know ….
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